ugh, fuck, why am i so awkward everywhere i go...parents keep bugging me to give them a 'christmas list'. far be it from me to pass up free stuff, but considering my father's financial position it makes me wary. besides, i don't quite know what to ask for.
i think a livejournal paid account would be nice and i think for only something like $20 it's a perfectly all right gift! but then i remember that nobody reads this thing; my friends list is depressingly tiny and 40% of it is inactive. oh well. i don't ever really post anything of note, do i?
it is for this reason i've been trying to write more fanfiction, and get better at drawing things. so then i mightn't be such a waste of space.
motivation and talent - there's what i want for christmas!